Things weighing heavy on my heart.

So there have been a lot of things that have been going on lately...

Still haven't heard from Stephen. I hate not knowing how he's doing or even what he's doing. I hate not having him here with me at night.  And worst of all, I hate that he can't come to church with me. I'm glad he can attend church, but I think being alone at church is the worst feeling ever. I also can't stop thinking about what's going to happen. Some people say he'll be able to change his MOS, and others don't think so.  Another thing I think about is having a child right away. I'm all for it, but what if it's not that easy. I go to the doctor on the 28th, so we'll see I guess. I'm afraid that with the extra 8 lbs or so that I need to lose, on top of my chiropractor telling me that the vertebrate that is broken causes infertility I'm just so stressed. Another thing is Corbin. He's being completely amazing since Stephen's been gone. He's saying so much, and I hate that Stephen's missing it. Shoot, even his biological father is missing it. I can't wait to see him in the shirt Stephen got him :) 

I can't think for some reason, and I can't even keep my eyes open..I'm sorry if this doesn't make any sense.